Friday 21 June 2013

Take the Good with the Bad!


I've been meaning to update this since last week when I had my hospital appointment but I've had a really stressfull week, so couldn't make myself sit down and write about it all.

Here goes:

Last Tuesday (11th June 2013) we had our appointment with the fertility specialist.
I'd had a really bad morning and was already quite emotional so knowing that I had to go to the hospital made me feel even worse!

Me and Kenny got there about 15 minutes before our appointment and were amazed that the waiting room was empty apart from one other couple sitting opposite.
It's quite a weird feeling sitting there knowing that those people are probably going through the same thing and I found myself wondering what stage they were at, if they'd had treatment, had it worked?

First of all we had to wait about 45minutes to be called.....very unproffessional of them to leave us in suspense that long if you ask me.
Then we went in and met the doctor.

He started by saying that he needed all of our details again, name age, ever had a child, how long been trying.....blah blah  blah.
He then said "We may need to do some tests"
Well me and Kenny looked at eachother absoloutly gobsmacked as we've had the last 6 to 7 months of constant tests.
I probably sounded quite rude but I snapped and told him that I've had loads of tests and reeled them off.
He then checked our files on the computer and surprise surprise found all of our results.

He then went on to explain that he feels I have borderline PolyCystic Ovaries, he showed me my scan on my ovaries and said that there are about 7 cysts around one of them which is more than normal but not enough to say I definatley have PCOS.

He then said really flippently "has anyone told you that you have double womb?" at which point I think my chin hit the floor I was that gobsmacked!
I said No but he then went on to start talking about Kenny's results which have improved but still not brilliant.

My heart was racing and I felt sick.....I think Kenny could tell because he interuppted the doctor and asked if he could now explain what 'double womb is and what that meant for us'.

He basically drew a diagram of the womb and how it should be....I will do a seperate post on this to explain about it in more detail!
All I heard at the time was "it may cause probelms concieving and also problems carrying full term...something about possible misscarriage and that they may need to do keyhole surgery to see how bad it is" at this point I just cried my eyes out.
The nurse and doctor were both really quite sympathetic, told me not to cry but I think in my mind I was just thinking "why me? why this on top of all the other problems?"

The doctor then tried to calm me down a bit, he said that it may be possible to operate to open the uterus up but it depends on the extent of it and that for now he didn't want to worry about that, he wanted to concentrate on getting me ovulating!

He prescribed me Metformin and told us that there are lots of side effects to be aware of......"Kenny joked that I may end up pregnant but also bald" which did make me laugh!
He then said that he wants me to take Provera to induce a period (as I don't have them) and then start 50mg of Clomiphene in 4 weeks time! I will do this for 3 months and go for internal Ultrasound at certain points of the cycle to see if I've ovulated.

So I felt a mix of emotions when we finally got out of that room. I felt relief that I hadn't needed yet another examination, I felt happy to be finally recieving treatment and then I felt sad because even if I do fall pregnant I may be prone to misscarriages because of my stupid abnormal uterus!

such is life!

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