But I don't like the rain so I hope it dosen't last long!

I Love this saying!

 

Infertility Journey Scrapbooking

 

 

A couple of months back when reading through fertility treatment advice I came across a blog of a couple who had been through fertility treatments for numerous years and had finally conceived.

They had made a scrapbook of memories, keepsakes and photos from the beginning to the end of their journey and it was amazing.

In their case they had been through numerous Clomid, IUI, IVF rounds with no success and finally went down the adoption route and this was documented in their scrapbook.

 

It was really inspiring and so I have decided to do a scrapbook of my own. (as you can see from the pictures)

 

It's quite therapeutic and I hope that one day I will have a child (one way or another) who I can share it with!

 

 

 



Just Waiting and Wondering!

I have my next appointment through with another different doctor!

Apparently this time it's with the fertility specialist who will be deciding what path we take next and what treatment we will be having.

I'm quite happy to be seeing someone who will be finally making some decisions but I'm also really nervous at the same time. I was told that I may need to have YET ANOTHER examination by this doctor now which made me want to scream some obscenities at the top of my voice! I'm so sick of having people poking me. I feel violated! Why why why ......????? Why do they have to keep on doing the same things over and over again?

 

So anyway that's that....it's on June the 11th which wasn't as quick as I'd hoped for but at least I have an appointment now.

 

Now all there is to do is wait and wonder what will happen next!

 



Painful processes

I'm having an off day today! I have got the HSG on Monday and I'm really stressed about it and to make matters worse the guidance info for it says to do a pregnancy test just to ensure you are not! This seems pretty easy but it's such an emotional task for me!

Every time that I've done one (which has been a lot lately due to all these hospital appointments & tablets) I seem to go through the same process.

So today I bought the test even though I KNEW It's was going to be negative and then I had to pluck up the courage to do it. When it was processing I couldn't bring myself to look at it because I knew what the outcome was going to be and then when I finally did see that it's negative I cried my eyes out yet again because in my heart I was just hoping that somehow I would be wrong this time and I wouldn't have to go for this horrid HSG after all! It's always pretty much like that, so I'm really down right now! Just trying to distract myself with the fact that once the test is done I might have some answers at last!