My journey through fertility investigations and treatments! My name is Rachel and I was born in North London/England on 28th June 1986. I am married to my lovely husband Kenny and we live in Essex with our 2 cats Noddy and Snoopy. I have created a blog about my journey through fertility investigations and treatment as I feel that not enough is said about this subject.
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Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Wednesday, 8 October 2014
Monday, 21 April 2014
Bourn Hall Vs Barts
Over the past few weeks we have had the tough job of deciding which hospital we would like to be referred to for the IVF process.
We have had to weigh up the pro's and con's of each of our top two clinics but finally came to a decision.
BOURN HALL CLINIC CAMBRIDGESHIRE
We decided that for us Bourn would be easier to get to and better for me in general as it has a much more relaxed atmosphere than Barts.
I am a really stressy person and getting on and off trains into central London would just tip me over the edge.
We Originally picked Barts as we thought that being in Central London it would be one of the best hospitals we could go with in the UK but since looking further into it all we felt Bourn had more to offer us.
We visited the Cambridge Clinic a few weeks ago and was highly impressed by the friendliness of the staff. The hospital itself is well maintained, quiet, clean and comfortable which is just right for us.
In November last year Bourn Hall hit the National Headlines for it's high success rates.
The video is below:
Friday, 27 September 2013
Crappy Clomid and Another Failed Cycle!
I haven't posted for the past few weeks...medications accompanied with the side effects have left me weary and feeling too emotional to write about it.
In my last post I was having problems with Provera, I was feeling very nauseas and it was making me really miserable, little did I realise that this was just the beginning of my cycle from hell.
I am an emotional person anyway and cry when I'm happy, sad, in between, etc Lol, but this was on another level this time round. At one point I got really angry about losing an address book and wanted to smash up something, I also went shopping with Kenny and ended up crying over a frozen chicken that he put in the shopping basket because I felt sorry for it .(yes I laugh now about it but it didn't feel funny at the time)
On day 8 of taking Provera I started getting stomach pains, by day 10 I was cramping to the point of not being able to walk and AF arrived earlier than it normally does. It sounds stupid but I woke up in the middle of the night and the pains were so bad that I thought that maybe somehow I was pregnant and having a miscarriage because it hurt that bad. I was standing at the windowsill, breathing in and out slowly because the pain was so bad. I honestly don't know why I was in so much pain but I just hope that I don't have to go through it again, it started going off on about Cycle day 2/3.
I then began taking the 50mg of Clomid again and booked my Follicle scan with the hospital.
The time leading up to my Scan really dragged and I felt so sad, I knew deep down that it hadn't worked but I had to keep going and just hope that I was wrong.
Come scan day I was really on edge, I got there on time and yet again had to wait an extra 20minutes to be seen.
During the scan the nurse asked me if I've ever had PID (Pelvic Inflammatory disease) but did not go into detail of why she asked this. I've never had it as far as I know and I have had so many checks during this process that I would've thought that the doctors would know if I'd had it or not?
Anyway she continued doing the scan and then I went to talk with the senior nurse who gave me the results ............ It failed again!
No matter how many times you prepare yourself for the bad news it still feels like a kick in the stomach!
My womb lining has increased from 1.2 thickness to 4.4 which is good but still too thin so she said to continue taking the baby aspirin. The Follies on both sides were not mature at all (too small again) so she said that she will increase the Clomid to 75mg next month.
I went from the hospital to work...cried in my car on the way there, managed to keep it together during the day and then cried again in my car on the way home.
I was really negative yesterday but then the Nurse rang me out of the blue and said that she had spoken to our fertility doctor who wants the Clomid put up by more than just 25mg, so next Cycle I will be on 100mg instead.
I feel a bit better today, luckily I have great friends and family around me who keep me going and remind me to stay strong.
I know that Rome wasn't built in a day but this whole process seems so dragged out and never ending.
I was talking with someone who I work with today who has also been through this and what she said hit the nail on the head... "it's the not knowing when it will happen or if it even will that hurts".
In my last post I was having problems with Provera, I was feeling very nauseas and it was making me really miserable, little did I realise that this was just the beginning of my cycle from hell.
I am an emotional person anyway and cry when I'm happy, sad, in between, etc Lol, but this was on another level this time round. At one point I got really angry about losing an address book and wanted to smash up something, I also went shopping with Kenny and ended up crying over a frozen chicken that he put in the shopping basket because I felt sorry for it .(yes I laugh now about it but it didn't feel funny at the time)
On day 8 of taking Provera I started getting stomach pains, by day 10 I was cramping to the point of not being able to walk and AF arrived earlier than it normally does. It sounds stupid but I woke up in the middle of the night and the pains were so bad that I thought that maybe somehow I was pregnant and having a miscarriage because it hurt that bad. I was standing at the windowsill, breathing in and out slowly because the pain was so bad. I honestly don't know why I was in so much pain but I just hope that I don't have to go through it again, it started going off on about Cycle day 2/3.
I then began taking the 50mg of Clomid again and booked my Follicle scan with the hospital.
The time leading up to my Scan really dragged and I felt so sad, I knew deep down that it hadn't worked but I had to keep going and just hope that I was wrong.
Come scan day I was really on edge, I got there on time and yet again had to wait an extra 20minutes to be seen.
During the scan the nurse asked me if I've ever had PID (Pelvic Inflammatory disease) but did not go into detail of why she asked this. I've never had it as far as I know and I have had so many checks during this process that I would've thought that the doctors would know if I'd had it or not?
Anyway she continued doing the scan and then I went to talk with the senior nurse who gave me the results ............ It failed again!
No matter how many times you prepare yourself for the bad news it still feels like a kick in the stomach!
My womb lining has increased from 1.2 thickness to 4.4 which is good but still too thin so she said to continue taking the baby aspirin. The Follies on both sides were not mature at all (too small again) so she said that she will increase the Clomid to 75mg next month.
I went from the hospital to work...cried in my car on the way there, managed to keep it together during the day and then cried again in my car on the way home.
I was really negative yesterday but then the Nurse rang me out of the blue and said that she had spoken to our fertility doctor who wants the Clomid put up by more than just 25mg, so next Cycle I will be on 100mg instead.
I feel a bit better today, luckily I have great friends and family around me who keep me going and remind me to stay strong.
I know that Rome wasn't built in a day but this whole process seems so dragged out and never ending.
I was talking with someone who I work with today who has also been through this and what she said hit the nail on the head... "it's the not knowing when it will happen or if it even will that hurts".
Saturday, 7 September 2013
Life in the Womb (9months in 4 minutes)
My mum came across this video on facebook, it's fascinating to see how a baby develops inside the womb.
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
Infertility affects women's lives differently based on social class!
I just came across this article which was posted on the Fox News website yesterday. (link below)
It talks about studies which have shown that women from a high social class are affected by infertility differently to those of a lower social class.
It made quite an interesting read but I'm not so sure that I agree... What do you think?
http://www.foxnews.com/health/2013/08/19/psychology-no-kids-how-infertility-affects-women-lives/
Sunday, 2 June 2013
Infertility Journey Scrapbooking
A couple of months back when reading through fertility treatment advice I came across a blog of a couple who had been through fertility treatments for numerous years and had finally conceived.
They had made a scrapbook of memories, keepsakes and photos from the beginning to the end of their journey and it was amazing.
In their case they had been through numerous Clomid, IUI, IVF rounds with no success and finally went down the adoption route and this was documented in their scrapbook.
It was really inspiring and so I have decided to do a scrapbook of my own. (as you can see from the pictures)
It's quite therapeutic and I hope that one day I will have a child (one way or another) who I can share it with!
Tuesday, 7 May 2013
Up to Date
On track
So now I am up to date on here!
I am currently waiting to have the HSG done, my appointment is next Monday and I'm dreading it.
I know I've got to have it done so I just need to think happy thoughts!
Talking of happy thoughts....one of the main things that keeps me going through this is humour!
Sometimes I feel so down about it all but you have to make light of some situations......like when you lay on those doctors couches and wish you were at the dentist opening you're mouth rather than there opening your legs! ha ha
I came across this game recently that made me giggle, I'm sure if you are going through the same thing you will relate to it too!
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