Painful processes

I'm having an off day today! I have got the HSG on Monday and I'm really stressed about it and to make matters worse the guidance info for it says to do a pregnancy test just to ensure you are not! This seems pretty easy but it's such an emotional task for me!

Every time that I've done one (which has been a lot lately due to all these hospital appointments & tablets) I seem to go through the same process.

So today I bought the test even though I KNEW It's was going to be negative and then I had to pluck up the courage to do it. When it was processing I couldn't bring myself to look at it because I knew what the outcome was going to be and then when I finally did see that it's negative I cried my eyes out yet again because in my heart I was just hoping that somehow I would be wrong this time and I wouldn't have to go for this horrid HSG after all! It's always pretty much like that, so I'm really down right now! Just trying to distract myself with the fact that once the test is done I might have some answers at last!

Up to Date

On track

So now I am up to date on here!

 I am currently waiting to have the HSG done, my appointment is next Monday and I'm dreading it.

I know I've got to have it done so I just need to think happy thoughts!

Talking of happy thoughts....one of the main things that keeps me going through this is humour!

Sometimes I feel so down about it all but you have to make light of some situations......like when you lay on those doctors couches and wish you were at the dentist opening you're mouth rather than there opening your legs! ha ha

I came across this game recently that made me giggle, I'm sure if you are going through the same thing you will relate to it too!

http://indulgy.com/post/f872qKAcB1/infertility-the-board-game-painfully-funny